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Is there any love left for cheating ptarner.?I am a 26year old FT working mum, with 2 beautiful boys 2 3 with my ptarner of 6 years.In the 1st 3 months we were together he cheated on me 4 times however i found out about these all at the same time, it was my choice to forgive him i did things were fine between us.2 years later he asked me to have a baby, i always wanted kids and whilst not that young i went ahead with it anyway. Whilst being pregnant for my first he left me 10 weeks in to the pregnancy. I dod book myself in for an abortion at this point, he some how got wind of this and we got back together. ( Him only coming back as he thought i was aborting his child was something i found out later ). He then left me at 26 weeks pregnant for some one who he moved in with the day he left, but he blammed me at the fact he left saying i had caused it, but to this day he has not told me what i done so wrong to make him leave me. (i now got the understanding he thought it was safe to do so as i was pregnant and would take him back).I kept asking him over and over if he wanted to be at the birth and he did, however when i went in to labour i called him to let him know, but he did not believe me as he was out clubbing and though i was trying to ruin his night out!! (at no point did i ever tell him i was in labour untill i was!). He did make it to the birth JUST as babys head was there. 10 weeks after this he came back groveling asking me to give him another chance and i did. Things were going fime between us for the next 3 years, we had another baby boy. He was working and asked me to not return to work and be a FT mum and he would support our family. I gave my job up, but things did not go to plan, he bough him self a car and started spending a3a3a3a3a3 lots of it on the car, wheels, suspension (pretty much being a boy racer) obviously this was causing arguments as we did not have the money to spend and had debts coming out of our ears. When there was nothing to eat he would get pissy but he wasnt giving me money to get food. I only had my CB to help me through the month. I was suffering from postnatal depression from both my children at this time, he would come home to me in tears most days, due to various reasons. He never seemed interested in me or kids would spend anytime he had off work with mates or cleaning his car or doing it up!In January 09 he lost his on site job as many people did.I could not be on bennifits and contacted my ex employer and managed to get my job back with a promotion to manager which was great we had a gaureented income to pay the bills, rebt ect. Great news with the resession really.I became happier when returning to work as i seen people, he noticed this change and became obsesive with me causing arguments when i got home. He would start an argument before i went to work leaving me in a bad mood. He left me again in june 09 and ran away uncontactable for 10 days with another woman!!!I have taken him back things really arn't the same now, i am unhappy with him, our sex lift is non-exsitant. (this is me more so than him)Through out everything i have never cheated on my ptarner or even thought about it, but . now the thought is there and temptation.I love him loads but really not in love with him anymore, i dont want to hurt him by cheating but at the same time really don't know how to end the relationship. I know when i do that end it he will go off the rails and mess his life up ( i have kept him on track for the last 6 years and when we havesplit he goes off the rails and loses work and gets in to trouble with police for various things). When he does this his family will balme me as they always have.How can i do this but still remain friends??? HELP!!!
by Mrmr 11:11:01 AM 2013.06.28 |
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