that work has to be a dirty four letter word that incdlues struggle, pain, disappointments and making myself smaller to fit into the corporate world. So my hopes and dreams always lose not much of a competion. Even writing this down reminds me that I live a vision whether Iâ??m conscious of it or not. Either Iâ??m living my life under the assumptions above that I have to be smaller than I want to be in the corporate world. That I have to have a marketable skill beyond my analytical talents and perservance and creative intelligence to pay the bills and support my family or else we, my husband, child and I will go hungry and without a home. It comes with the same voice that tells me that I need to let go of â??childishâ?? dreams that I could make an actual contribution beyond the petty, bureaucratic contributions I make in my job. Iâ??d love to live a vision for my life but how can I get to it if Iâ??m under the Puritan ideal of work before play and somehow a vision for my life would be play? There must be some kind of dualistic thinking here and I have no idea how to get out from that idea. How to dismiss the dual thinking that my vision is separate from my real work?

by Gulhan 05:50:52 AM 2012.12.09